Gay Boyfriend, It doesn't really matter that you are queer!

Ioften wonder why I have so many gay boyfriends. I often joke that I know no straight men, but really, it's not a joke.

Usually, it never bothers me to only hang out with my gay boyfriends. I once gave up hanging out with them at Sundance one weekend to hang out with Anne and other girls. However, I ended up bonding with the gay boy at the party. It was sad.

But last Friday we went to see a movie. It was Jesse, Brian, Scott, Nathan, Josh, his friend Treven, and me. Now, this normally doesn't bother me. I mean, I go to movies with them all the time, right? Like the Saturday before, we went to see a movie and I was ok. But last Friday was different. For some reason, it just really bothered me. I'm not really sure why either. Was it because I was the only girl? No. I'm always the only girl.

The more I thought about it, the more I think it is because I feel like a fifth or third wheel at times. Usually, it is me, Jesse, and Brian. Sometimes, it is us and Scott and Nathan. Seeing anything yet? They are all couples. I am by myself. I often wonder if they just invite me along because they feel like they have to. I feel like I am imposing on a date of theirs or something.

And that's what it was on Friday. It was like the 6 of them were on a group date and here I was, the poor, little straight girl they feel obligated to be nice to. Now, I know that's not how it is. But
sometimes I wonder. Sigh.

I'm not really sure of my attraction to gay men. (Not that kind of attraction!) Maybe I just don't like mediocrity, I don't know. Then, this morning, I realized it. I have so much fun with my gay
boyfriends. Much more fun than I do with girls. Now, I would like a straight guy, so if any of y'all know any single, good looking ones, let me know!

But I am so comfortable around my gay friends. I don't have to worry about another girl being catty or jealous or doing any of the zillion mean things girls do to each other. And, the conversations I have with them are interesting, to say the least. For example, I go to this
Democratic Leadership breakfast on Tuesday mornings and Senator McCoy was there. He is on a diet because he and his partner, Mark, are going on a gay cruise this summer (which we HAVE to do Jesse!). I said that I have always wanted to go on a gay cruise but my girl friends
are always like, "Why?" My reply always is, "Hot, half-naked men on a boat at sea? HELLO! I don't care if they are gay, I just want to look!"

It is these kinds of conversations that I have that make my friendships so fun. It's fun to check out guys with Jesse. It's even more fun to check out guys with Brian! (hehe) But there is just something different and nice about doing this with guys than with girls. It's more fun and I feel more comfortable for some reason.

Besides, there are amazing perks to having only gay boyfriends. Endless fashion advice, craft buddies, hot dates, and no guys mess with me when we are out because I am surrounded by men!