"I can't imagine Heaven without either"

"Your church doesn't allow alcohol or homosexuals? Well then, I am definitely not going to join. I can't imagine Heaven without either." Latter Days (2004)

I can't imagine Heaven or my life without my gay boyfriends. Alcohol, maybe. But the more drama that occurs, the more alcohol helps. It's a vicious cycle.

But seriously. This past week has been quite an eventful one. I mentioned in the previous post that it would be nice if I had something fun to write about--like a break up or a coming out story. Well, I had both last week. And I didn't mind being there for them. I'm even going to revise a rule because of it.

For the past few days, I have been dogsitting for a friend of mine, Arlyn. (Yes, he's gay.) It has been a lot of fun. As I was walking Otis yesterday, I was thinking of something Brady said. He said, "I didn't think you and Arlyn were that good of friends for you to watch his dog." Well, we aren't. But, he was in a jam and I figured since I wasn't doing much this weekend, I could help him out.

The more I thought about this, the more I realized that helping others is just my nature. My horoscope this morning said, "Of all twelve signs, yours is the most famous for its willingness to do whatever it takes when someone you love needs you." I realized that part of it was my maternal instinct. I know it sounds silly but, I do tend to mother my gay boys, some more than others. I think it is because I do not have McKenna all the time so I feel that to be a mother to someone.

I know that some of the gay boys don't mind this. Others call it meddling or "fanning the flames." I hope that, if one of them does mind my concern and caring, he will tell me.

When I have my kid full-time--which will be soon--that they will all understand that I won't be able to help them as much as I have. I hate to do that, but I know they'll understand. Now, I will still be there for them-at whatever hour.

It's hard for me to imagine my life without any of my gay boyfriends (well, maybe one or two). You really all mean so much to me. As such, I am revising Rule #1.

New Rule #1: No phone calls or text messages after 10:00 PM unless you know without a doubt that I am awake. The ONLY exceptions will be the following:

A. If you suspect your boyfriend is cheating on you and you want to break up with him.
B. If your parents found out that you are gay and they think something is seriously wrong with you and you are scared to go home and you need a place to stay.
C. A major crisis has occurred (think, the cancellation of The West Wing).

Please note, however, that I still DO NOT like annoying calls late at night with even more annoying voicemails!!!! Anyone who chooses to still call and it does not concern one of the exceptions will be put to DEATH! Death = being forced to watch golf or Teletubbies on television.

I really can't imagine Heaven without you.