Jesse

Jesse.

Hoo, boy! Where to begin?

First, let me explain the caricature below.

1. The Suit. Jesse has a great blog entitled, Boy in Suit. You should
check it out if you haven't already. You can keep up with his (our)
daily adventures.

2. The Happy Face. Jesse is a very happy person (most of the time) and
SO much fun to hang out with. He can always cheer me up and center me
when needed. He once said that he thought I only was his friend
because he was fun. But, as you will see, there is SO much more to
Jesse.

3. The Portable Listening Device. For about a year now, Jesse has wanted an iPod. Last November, I got one and he was totally jealous! So, he begged his parents to buy him one for Christmas. Well, they bought him one, but the mini-not the 20GB, like mine. He decided he
would take it back and use the money for a 20GB. That didn't pan out so he went and bought another mini. I would like to say he is one of those nerds who takes his iPod everywhere and listens to it, but sadly, I can not. He does listen to it at school but alas, I have never seen him to make fun of him. (Sigh.)

4. "Jesseland." Now, this picture shows "Cartmanland." I'm sure that it is much like Jesseland. Jesse, you see, lives in his own world. I have said before that Jesse often has to be right, to have the final word, to have things his own way (yes you do!), and often ignores the rest of us. Now, these aren't bad things, per se. I mean, we have gotten used to them. I'm not saying Jesse is selfish or anything. Well, actually, all gay men are a little selfish so, I guess I am. But anyway...
Jesseland is fun to visit, but I don't think I'd like to live there--not enough hours in the day to ride all the rides and see all the attractions. It takes a while to see all of Jesseland, it is SO big (wink, wink). Seriously though, Jesseland is great. I really like it there.


Jesse

Jesse is my best friend. We know pretty much everything about each other. Well, that's not exactly true. I haven't told him about that one time when I--well, never mind that. I once got upset with him because I felt that he was constantly whining to me about something in
his life. I found it rather annoying. When I told him this, he said he only told me things because he felt that he could tell me anything and valued my input. Boy, did I feel stupid. I have noticed since then, he doesn't share as much. I miss that. He doesn't tell me about Brian and
him anymore; I have to read about that on his blog. I don't care that much, but I liked when he told me so I could be there for him. I mean, isn't that the best friend's job?

I'll admit though, I haven't been the greatest friend. I, too, am selfish. (I know! Can you believe it?!) I often take my frustrations out on him which is awful because he does mean so much to me. Hopefully, I have been better.

We used to say that we were soulmates because we'd often finish each other's sentences or knew what the other was thinking. We spent almost everyday last summer together. Brian didn't like that very much, understandably.

Jesse is also a conundrum. He is so smart yet sometimes doesn't act that way. He is always trying to impress others, which, can be annoying. I figure, if people don't like you the way you are, then they don't deserve to be your friends. Jesse tries to please everyone around him. I think that has something to do with his struggle realizing he was gay. He wants to be accepted for who he is. He wants to be liked. Now, he'd NEVER admit any of this, so, I have to tell
you. Jesse, in fact, is one of the smartest people I have ever met. He knows SO much about SO many different subjects. He knows tons of (useless) facts and has a solid opinion on everything. I think he thinks that I think he is stupid. I don't. At all.

I just sometimes wish he would just be Jesse. The Jesse Brian is madly in love with. The Jesse who is SO much fun to hang out with when it's just the two (or three!) of us. The Jesse that laughs and farts (sometimes at the same time!) and doesn't care. The Jesse that is willing to speak up for what he believes in and is not afraid to do so.

One of my favorite things about Jesse is the love he has for Brian. I don't think they realize I notice, but it is so sweet when they are near each other and Jesse kisses Brian's neck or arm or leg. Or when Jesse whispers something to Brian and he says, "Maybe." Oh please! I totally know what you are talking about! (See, Ferret Calendar.)

Jesse has a big heart. He is so sweet and nice and cute and fun! He cares deeply for others, especially his loved ones. I've never seen a family quite like his. They are so amazing. I wish I had that. But, because of Jesse's big heart, I am severely protective of him. Say one bad thing about him and watch out! I hate to see him sad or hurt. I hate the fact that I have caused some of his sadness or hurt.

Another thing I love about Jesse is how he is with McKenna and other kids. McKenna loves him! Everytime she comes to town, she always has to go see Jesse. I hope that, when I have her full-time, he will still want to hang out with me (us) as much.

Well, I could write all day about Jesse. This will be the first post about him. He is much too much to only have one entry! Look for the next installment of...Jesse!