Promise

Have you ever done something to a friend that you wish you could take back? Have you lost sleep or not been able to eat because you just can't stop thinking about how awful you've been?

I value the friendships I have but have virtually ruined one of the best ones I've ever had. You know the kind, where you can talk about anything, do almost everything together, and often say the exact same thing at the exact same time.

I'm not really sure why I've done it either. I'm neurotic and insecure--I don't know. I've been quite a bitch. Not my usual sarcastic bitchy-self, but really mean and spiteful.

We stopped hanging out as much for the past few months and I wasn't really sure why. I took it to mean that he didn't care anymore. Really, because I had hurt him so badly, he just wanted to distance himself.

Now, things will never go back to how they used to be. That makes me so sad.

But, we can only dwell on the past for so long. Is the friendship salvageable? Of course, but it will take work on both parts. I've learned a very valuable lesson and am going to make sure next year is better than this year.

All I have is my promise and the memories. I hope you can accept them.

Besides, we'll always have Wendover. ;)

I promise not to try not to fuck with your mind
I promise not to mind if you go your way and I go mine
I promise not to lie if I’m looking you straight in the eye
I promise not to lie and not to let you down
"Promise" Eve 6